This is an open letter to the DOUCHE who could have killed me at the intersection of Alameda and Monaco about 45 minutes ago:

Dear DOUCHEBAGMOTHERFUCKER,

I had the geen arrow. I even paused to make sure a douchebag such as yourself wouldn't be charging through. Half-way through the intersection, you decided to gun it and go through.

You barely missed ME.

I stepped so hard on my brakes and laid so hard on the horn, that I have a sore shoulder from the seatbelt and a bruised palm.

I hate you.

Thank the Lord in heaven I didn't have my son in the car with me. Thank God there wasn't a collision, but especially with my precious baby inside the car with me. I have kept this child safe from everything from burglars to diseases, and I will not lose him to someone as fucked up and fancy fucking free as yourself, you jackass.

Had we collided, I would have gotten then out of my car and beaten you some more, you selfish prick. Had we collided, you would have t-boned me at your speed of at least 40 mph. Seriously.

You are selfish because you just must not care about your life. Maybe you are a punk ass teenager driving stupidly with your friends. See, this is how bad shit happens. This is what changes your life as you know FOREVER.

Thankfully, it will not change mine. I'm not in the ER right now at the hospital my husband works for, trying to talk to the residents HE IS IN CHARGE OF and the colleagues he works with (the ones that know me and I know their wives and babies), telling them to page my husband because I'm scared to death to be there without him. I'm not trying to talk to the trauma doctors that I know very well and telling them someone needs to call my son's daycare and let them know what happened. I'm not feeling broken bones and shattered insides.

I'm not praying to God that I live so my baby will know me for 30 plus years, not just from photos and from stories he has to hear from his daddy and our families.

THIS IS HOW BAD IT COULD HAVE BEEN HAD WE ALL NOT STOPPED FOR YOU.

Fuck you you cocksucker,
HDW